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Part 2
“Finding Joy”
Twas the day before Christmas, and the kids are all talking
about toys they will get from inside their stocking.
Those kids are preparing with holiday cheer
For friends to come over, especially one who has some
reindeer
They’ve said they’ve been good, and for the most part they
have
So Santa will visit, after they’ve taken their bath.
And Heather and I, will simply lay down to sleep
No Santa gifts to wrap. No cookies to eat.
For Christmas eve night, and the next Christmas morn
are a silent affairs, until children are born.
But don’t think for a second that we are both sad
Completely untrue. We
see the blessings we’ve had
Because even without a little girl or bright baby boy
Christmas can still be a time of wonderful Joy!
Perspective. It’s the
word of the day on this Christmas Eve, because I think if I have learned
anything in 2013 it is that perspective makes all the difference in the
world. Perspective can shape our
attitudes. It can change our
behaviors. It can hold us back from
achieving goals, or it can propel us forward into the exciting unknown. Perspective is the beginning of success or
failure. It matters, and that is what I
have had to learn.
So when I left off our story yesterday, it was March 2013
and Heather and I had basically been told that to have a child on our own would
require serious help, to adopt a baby would be next to impossible, and to adopt
an older child would be unfair to both parties due to the instability of our
life and Heather’s career. We sat
devastated at what was now obvious. Our
lives would be one without children.
We probably took a month or two to discuss it. We would waver back and forth with the
decision. One day we would want to
continue trying. One day we would see a
child lose his temper in Target and decide we didn’t need a kid. That time of month would come. I would still get mad at God, and then the
cycle would start over. Then I went home
to Florida, to help my Dad with a project.
“You know;” he said, “It’s ok to not have children.” You know those moments in life when you are
thinking back to all the things your parents taught you, and a couple stick
out? Holy shit!!! This is at the top of the list, for one
simple reason. It came out of his
mouth. Now don’t get me wrong, my Dad is
a smart man. He started his own business
in the early 80s. He sold that business
and then taught himself computer programming in the mid 80s. He can fix anything. And as he spends his first week in
retirement, I can look back and say, WOW!
But, the things I have learned from him have mostly been
nonverbal. He taught me how to do small
car repairs so I don’t have to pay big money.
The same goes with home repairs.
He made my brother and me get up early and mow the lawn or clean the
windows, teaching us the value of hard work.
He gave us computers to work on or play with before they were “cool”
because he could see the future of both business and life. SMART MAN!!!
Verbal just wasn’t his strong suit. At least I didn’t think so, but apparently,
it can be. I guess he just took the
words of Teddy Roosevelt to heart, “Speak softly, and carry a big stick.” Actions teach louder than words. And so when he said, “It’s ok to not have
children,” I listened, and I learned.
So when I returned
home to Heather, I told her the same thing.
“You know, it’s ok to not have children.” We sat, we pondered, we prayed. We did them all again and again. Our minds and our hearts fought to make a
decision. One said, not having kids
would be great. You can do whatever you
want, whenever you want. The other said,
but it’s a baby!!! Meanwhile, those
pregnant friends I mentioned in part 1 had their kids. One came out 10 lbs 5 oz, NATURALLY without
an epidural.
It wasn’t until August or maybe September where we both came
to the same perspective as my Father had months earlier. However, he was and is right, “IT IS OK TO
NOT HAVE CHILDREN!” Our perspective had
changed. Our lives were
transformed. It was time for us to stop
living as if we were waiting for something.
Instead we started living as if we were the only ones in our
family. I came up with the concept that
living life is cool, but experiencing life is awesome.
So I took that perspective a bit further. Not only was it ok to not have children, but
it was downright AWESOME. It was
magical. It was a blessing. If everyone found joy and blessings in their
children, then I was going to find joy and blessings in NOT having them. In fact, since everyone uses Social Media to
tell us about their kids as joys and blessings I was going to do the same. I mean, isn’t Facebook where we share our
life stories. Mine didn’t involve
children, so share I would.
So with a changed perspective I made a series of Facebook
posts of why it was great to not have kids.
Here are a few of my favorites:
1.
Whatever I cook, Heather and I eat. And there is no complaining
that it has too much green stuff or healthy stuff or looks weird. P.S. if we
don't like it...RARE INDEED...then we can just up and go out and get whatever
we want.
2.
Gratuitous violence in movies, tv shows or the NFL can be
watched whenever I want.
3.
I don't have to worry about having 165 pics of kid 1 and only 12
pics of kid 2. And they don't have to be in some book with their first sock,
their first report card and a lock of hair from their first hair cut.
4.
Headed to a theme park. Everyone in my party is over 40" tall, so I don't have to
wait for a growth spurt!
5.
I never have to say "because I said so." Heather does
say it to me sometimes.
There are several more, some are holiday themed, some are
cheesy, but the idea behind them is that finally, for the first time in my
life, I am happy, excited and JOYFUL about not having children. I have decided to see the positive among what
most consider being a completely painful and negative situation. It is completely awesome, fantastic, fabulous
and wonderful not having children. And
some of you parents know it!!!
Why do I say that?
For two reasons: One, you have
told me. In fact, some of you have given
me suggestions to add to my list. You
have laughed with us whenever I say something out loud. You have rolled your eyes at me when I come
up with a new great thing about not having children because you are considering
the source. You get it and you get
me. Thanks!
The other reason I know some parents know that I am right?
because they are offended by what I have written. Now let me get one thing straight, my intent
was not to offend anyone, but I have long been a proponent of the fact that we
have offensiveitis in this country. That
is the disease of being offended at anything that doesn’t live up to ideals of
life. It certainly seems that some of my
Facebook friends and family took deep offense to what I said. To them, I say I am sorry you were offended,
but I stand by my statements as both jokes and as truth to the joy that is my
life.
I could respond to all of the offended here individually,
but that would be a longer blog than this is already so let me just say
this. I know that children are a
blessing. I know that you love yours
more than anything. However, not having
children can be as equal a blessing. Not
having children can allow us the opportunity to do things we wouldn’t have
otherwise had the time, resources or inclination to do. And, it means I don’t have to scrub crayon,
paint and pencil off my walls. See, a
blessing!
Perspective. It
really can change your attitude. I
don’t need a child to build a legacy. I
can see the legacy being built in the children of my brother and
sister-in-law. They have so much of
their Grandparents, and Great-Grandparents in them already and as a by-product
so much of Heather and me too. That
little girl is stubborn and I love it, and love her! Thanks Mamaw!
Perspective. It gives
us the ability to move forward rather than look backward. What if becomes what’s next? We live for what we have, not for what we are
constantly trying to tell ourselves is the next logical step. We deal with the hand we are dealt, not for
the wish that some Ace of Spades is lingering as the next card in the
deck.
Perspective. It
changes us. It allows us to play with
the children of our friends and family without letting bitterness, anger and
sorrow creep in. Just ask the parents of
the two little girls who jumped all over me Saturday night while I sat their
and tickled them. Just ask the mother of
the little girl who will climb on my lap and let me tell her that I love her
because her father currently can’t give her the hugs she needs. (thanks army life) Just ask the mother of the five year old who
got to go to on lunch and movie date with me just because it was Tuesday and
she didn’t have school. There are
countless other examples, but these are just the most recent.
Heather and I don’t hate kids, we love them. We love yours. We love our nephew and neice, and if called
upon would care for them just as they were our own. We love visiting our cousins’ kids spread
all over the globe. We love our friends’
kids, and can’t wait to watch them open gifts just like you can’t wait for your
kids to do the same.
That doesn’t mean it is easy. Perspective may change, but the truth that we
don’t have children hasn’t. There are
moments when it is still tough. That’s
why I am saying right here and now. Don’t
judge people without kids if they don’t come to a birthday party for your 3
year old or if they leave a little bit sooner than you would like. Don’t be upset if they don’t immediately
congratulate you on Facebook after you post a sonogram. Don’t let the fact that they don’t want to
babysit for hours upon hours ruin your relationship with them. Sometimes it isn’t easy for them to be around
children at all. It can be downright
painful.
But perspective can help.
It’s OK to not have children. It’s
a blessing to not have children. It’s a
lot of fun not having children. There is
nothing wrong in believing that or expressing it. In fact, let me scream from the mountaintop
and pass around a cigar, “IT’S A NOTHING!!!”
Man that felt good.
So as your children get snuggled all nestled in bed
Remember these words plus the ones you just read.
It’s ok to be married without any kids
In fact is great having cups without any lids
Heather and I want to wish you the best
Lots of good food, good gifts, and hopefully some rest
As for Heather and I, we will lay down to sleep
And arise when we want, for we won’t here a peep
No children will jump, no children will scream
Just sincere peace and quite, in all of our dreams
So Merry Christmas to all, and to all your kids too
When they wake in the morn, may it be like a zoo.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year from the Schmitts
PS: We haven’t
stopped practicing!!!
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